Beginnings is my WORST part

 Sometimes beginnings can be the worst part of a journey

 Have you ever gotten a new story idea. The thought of all the jumping ideas makes you happy. You grin and dance thinking of all the great things your characters are going to face. And by great things the torture your going to shove in their face. 

 Almost everything we look at can give us ideas. The people around can easily fuel the types of characters we create. However, even if I put effort into writing an outline, or going with the panther instincts I believe I have... Doubt seems to happen quicker than my second chapter. 

 Sure every artist doubts themselves. But, I doubt myself so bad I sop wanting to write the book I have been dreaming of. And I have small reason for it, not even god ones. No one ever read any of my work to say I know some kind of feedback. People around me lowers my self esteem and make a sense of feeling that despite the years I have writing, someone who haven't spent as much time as me think they know more and 'offers advice'. It makes sense why I continuously think that everything am doing is never going to be close enough to sell 20k copies. '

 Despite all my anxiety, even if tried to stop writing, something always draw me back into it.  

 All writers has a goal they set every year when resolution goal setting comes to play. That is to finish their novel, or publish their novel, or grow their careers. And for a really long time, I have that seem dream. Which is why, in the middle of the year I am setting a hard goal for myself. I must finish a novel before the end pf the year. 

 And yes, am already of to a bad start. But now I have the motivation, a drive and a will to wake up in the morning to write. And because am a student being forced to go to school, this summer matters. 

And here are my goals for the summer (which am also starting late)

1. Doing the 10k writing challenge

2. Doing the 5k in 5 days challenge

3. Attempting to write 50k/ finish draft before summer ends (and my summer is 2 months)

4. Believing in myself... and drinking a lot of tea.

Are you challenging yourself or is going to anytime soon. Pushing yourself and working with a routine can really help...but I don't know for myself. That's why this is going t be a huge experiment for me. 

Stay close to the madness about to happen, and see how my challenges would play out. 

Comment your thoughts and if your going to or is challenging yourself. 

Bye Bye,

Marine

I usually think these are cringe, but I'll put it anyways.